March 14, 2012

So, this is what Chemotherapy looks like...

Last Sunday afternoon I got to spend some time with Katie during a Chemotherapy session.

If you don't know my little friend Katie I first introduced her to my blog readers here  then talked about her again here - Read those first and you'll be all caught up ;)


Katie was in a great mood.  Due in part to the fact she was getting to finally go home the next day.  For this current stretch she was in the hospital 2 weeks.






When I talked to her mom, Jenny, about 6 months ago things were going fantastic.   While she wasn't cured, or in technically in remission, her body was responding to the treatment very well and everyone breathed a small sigh of relief that things for the moment, were working.
Then, in late February, Katie was having pain in her legs and back so they went to the hospital for an MRI and the cancer was back.  It has spread.  Everywhere.  Her bones, her spine, her skull, it would be easier to name places in her body the cancer wasn't in, than to name the places it was. 
At this point any treatment she receives will not save her life, only prolong it.  And that was probably the most difficult sentence I've ever had to type.   

I asked Jenny(mom) if she had any plans for a benefit to help them with the medical costs.  With Katie hanging off her side she said they would probably do something when it comes time for the funeral because they weren't sure how they were going to afford that.  

And then, 5 seconds after the word funeral...Katie went right back to playing her CandyLand game.  
Because remember, she is a child. Despite all the grown up bullshit she has had to deal with, she is still 6 years old, so funeral talk bores her, but making sure she got to be the yellow gingerbread man for CandyLand was a big, big deal. 
   
But we have hope, and we have prayer right?  What are we without those 2 things. 
 I know that we cannot change Gods will but I am still praying for a miracle.   I actually like to get really specific with my prayers, I'm an organized person by nature so I like to sort things out neatly for God to deal with ;)  I've been specifically praying for 3 things, and I would love it if you would join me.

1. That Katie stays out of the hospital as much as possible, she wants to be home, she wants to go back to Kindergarten and living out of a hospital room is not exactly convenient for a single mom of 3 kids so please pray with me that Katie stays out of the hospital and gets to go back to her normal life as much as possible. 

2.  Pray for no pain for Katie.  Chemotherapy and Cancer can be both grueling and painful, the side effects are awful, and for a mother to watch her child suffer is one of the most unjust things I can think of.   However long this little baby has left, please Lord don't let her be in any more pain.

3. I am praying for her family, but specifically her brothers.  This is not the childhood they asked for.  And what a difficult age to understand all this.  I pray for their strength and understanding, and that they behave for their mama who is doing all she can to keep steering this ship.  I pray they find comfort in their family who is weathering this storm with them.
I promise to keep all my faithful blog readers in the loop about Katie and her journey and any benefits that may happen for the family.   Thank you so much for caring, and for your prayers, please remember her every night when you lay down to sleep.